Well it has been a testing few weeks. Apologies for not writing anything sooner. Work has kept me busy and worn out and then on top of that we have all had a bug.
J was sent home from the childminder in his second week there and after that, things went downhill. He was sick and went off food and then seemed to forget how to sleep in the night.
The last week or so has been full of sleepless nights, getting up to a crying baby who suddenly wants feeding again or cuddling back to sleep. So you feed, you cuddle and then you put them back down to sleep. The second you let go the crying starts again and you are back to the beginning.
It has been tough.
Work has been ok and I have settled in well but, combined with the lack of sleep, I have zero energy.
Then, when it seemed we were all coming out of the worst, my childminder tells me she is quitting. So I now have to find childcare again.
Many days this week I have felt like I have had to make a choice between staying home with my baby and going to work. Unfortunately, in a new job, I have to chose work. It was hard but J has been fine and probably didn’t really need me anyway.
As I write this, my eyes feel heavy; yet it is only the afternoon so I must go on.